Having a new born is exciting, fun, and loving but nobody talks about the real stuff. There is so much that goes on after a baby is born with our bodies, our minds, and our emotions. Then when you try to throw breastfeeding in there, I’m still unsure how I do it. When I first brought my daughter home, my husband worked nights and we had a 4 year old at the time as well. I was already exhausted physically but the months to follow I became exhausted mentally as well. I never slept, my body was hurting, and I swear my daughter nursed every two seconds. With my husband working thirds at the time, I felt by myself. He tried to pick up the slack where he could, however, choosing to breast feed is a commitment. My daughter preferred the breast over a bottle and she wouldn’t take a pacifier so she became attached. For like 6 months she didn’t want anybody but me. I literally became a human cow and pacifier. Those were the hardest months of my life, because I was so focused on “her being my kid, my problem” but I had to realize that it’s ok to need help. If you have help, utilize it. It definitely takes a village to raise a child.