If you told me 4 years ago that I would have breastfed a 4 year old, a 2 year old and a now 10 month old, I would have told you that you were out of your mind and probably laughed at you. Most people think that I am crazy and most people think that I have the strength of a lion. I honestly don’t know how I did it and how I am still doing it, but I always get through it.
I am going to talk about my breastfeeding journey with my son since it has been the hardest. When I had my son, he was born with low blood sugar at 5lbs 15oz, and we had to spend extra days in the hospital. So to see my son striving and growing off my breast milk alone brings me so much joy.
I absolutely love breastfeeding because of the bond I created with my son and the benefits that are available for both of us. However, breastfeeding has taken a toll on me, on my body and my self confidence. Breastfeeding has made me lose a lot of weight and it has increased my appetite times
1000 seriously lol. I am ALWAYS hungry and thirsty but I have a fast metabolism so I still don’t gain much weight. People don’t know that burning a large number of calories is a “benefit” of breastfeeding. For some women it’s a benefit but not for me. I’ve always been small but people body shame me. They tell me I need to eat and how I’ve gotten smaller and how I need to gain weight and they don’t even know the half. I don’t like being so small but it’s just something I have to deal with because I’m not giving up on breastfeeding.
I’ve dedicated my body to my children for 4 years and I am ready to claim my body back as mine. I am ready to pick out clothes without having to determine will Jaden have easy access to nurse, I am ready to be done with pumping and washing pumping parts everyday and I am ready to no longer feel like a 24/7 milk only restaurant.